An extra post than was expected

So here I am, back again. I said the next and last entry would be about May 12th for now. Well that was my plan, however there appear to be other forces in place. Let me tell you a story. Here I am April 27th sat in a cafe in my home town during the holiday caused by the series of bank holidays and three days off that were in the middle and this is how i got here

I have decided to amble into town to go and have a cup of coffee and relax and I mean properly relax. The sun is shining outside and it is at least 22'C. It is beautiful outside at the moment. I have decided to take a book with me to read and I have chosen Rick Warren "A Purpose Driven Life"

Anyway I am sat on a little patio table outside this cafe reading my book. I started with the introduction and all that good stuff and the first thing it says is that the book is split into 40 separate chapters and you should read one per day and meditate on it. Well so I started to read the first chapter and turned the page and ... I was at the end of the chapter. Hang on a minute I have barely poured my cup of tea so I might as well read chapter 2 as it is the only book I bought. Tea is still hot, time for chapter 3 and chapter 4. OOh but I have a pot of tea in my hand so I can have another cup of tea, that is enough time for chapter 5, and 6 and 7,8,9 and 10.

However something starts nagging me when I get to chapter 3 and 4, it is going on about knowing what your purpose is and this starts to get worse as i go through the next few chapters. This nagging starts really getting quite uncomfortable and then I realise something monumental, I don't know what my purpose is, because I don't have one. I am existing from day to day without meaning, without any real purpose here. I am existing rather than living.

All of a sudden it all makes sense, what i am missing is the sense of purpose in my life. I have stopped asking questions weeks ago. I am comfortable in most of things that go on and what I am not comfortable in isn't God, it's me. I have been missing out on something and have been looking at people who have something that I don't, that I would love to have and I need a purpose. But now I have worked out my purpose to serve God and Jesus and have my sins forgiven because Jesus died on the cross for me and guess what he did.

So at 14:20 on Wednesday 27th April 2011, sat at a patio table in the town centre with people walking past and going their own ways through town I bowed my head and asked for forgiveness for my sins and started a new life, walking with God. It was a simple prayer no more than a minute long. Then I just sat there at the cafe for another 20 minutes challenging what i'd just done, was it right? well yes it was and I was confident in what I had just done. After all that I have done and all the people I have had around me the entire time i have been doing the Alpha Course, something that is nothing to do with the alpha course has changed my life and in a quiet, unspectacular way, in fact no one else would even have noticed.

Anyway I walked home afterwards and looked around and the world around me had changed, or so it appeared. In fact I don't think the world around me had changed. I think I have changed and the way I view the world is different. The sky is more blue and the trees and leaves are more green. Everything has changed in the world and now I wonder what is to follow over the next part of my journey. The journey so far has been truly amazing and I am just smiling continuously all the time. I can't do anything but smile.

I haven't written this at the time I have posted it but symbolically I have dated it at the time I gave my life to God. I am now going to go and see what is new in my life as a result of this.